FOOSE1
Tuesday, August 22nd, 2006, 4:13 AM
QUOTE (Loismustdie @ Monday, August 21st, 2006, 1:14 PM)

Sigh- if it were only that easy. God does forgive, because of the sacrifice Jesus made. However, what does he say about a lukewarm offering. " Because you are neither hot nor cold I will sprew you out " God doesn't mess around- either you are going to serve him or not. I cannot serve him as he would like when I am lurching into worship just on time, not because I woke up but because I never slept, and all I can think about is Full house over Full house, the Full house that I caught to beat the straight, how I could have played this different or saved bets here and there, or gained bets here and there.
That kind of sacrifice is no sacrifice at all. It's just barely showing up. It's not good enough, and I know God thinks that.
As far as feelings of worthlessness? Where did you get that? Or self doubt? I know exactly who I am, that's sort of the point. I can look at myself and go " Geez, you know, I might as well just stay home and not even bother- what I am willing to sacrifice for God is just not enough."
Ever heard the song" All of self and none of thee?" It's sort of a progression that it illustrates,and each verse it changes. Some of self and some of thee, less of self and more of thee, None of self and all of thee. I am very driven by self- I am barely in the some stage, and really I know that when I was pretending to be in the none stage I was doing just that- pretending. I had't really changed the inner man, which is what I take to heaven with me, I don't get to take the facade. In all actuality that would be hell right now.
Sometimes, FOOSE, you feel bad because you damn well should.
Lois . . . that was the most honest sincere post I think I have ever read from you. Thank you . . . you have humbled me. I know exactly what you are saying. What you are feeling is the conviction of Christ Jesus . . . I know you know that already but it helps to hear it sometimes anyway

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Lukewarm christians are a dime a dozen. BUT the mere fact that you recognize this will eventually bring you that much closer to God. I have been there before. Why do I even get up and go to church when all I do is doze during the sermon? The only reason I want to go to my Sunday school class is to get a free breakfast! I have been there many times. BUT . . . the key is . . . you keep going . . . right. Try to figure out why you keep going. That is a big part of your progression as a Christian. The "why" is everything. Feelings of inadequecy in God's eyes is normal. Face it . . . in God's eyes none of us would ever make it to heaven on our own.
Have you ever met a person that was exactly what you wanted to be as a Christian? I have. I have looked at many people and just thought, WOW, I wish I were more like them. But the truth is that all those people you see at some time were lukewarm themselves. They weren't always on fire so to speak. It takes time. It just doesn't happen over night.
Sincerely, good luck Lois. You seem to have some struggles with your faith. But I know you will overcome them. Sounds stupid because I don't know you . . . but I will pray for you. I don't mean that in a condescending way. I mean that as a borther in Christ I will pray that you will perservere through your struggles.